FEATURE: Apollo Blue – Love Dream (Dir. Apollo Blue & Charlie Stamatogiannis)
The psychology of recurring dreams has simultaneously fascinated and perplexed the common person for millennia. They return uninvited, blurring the boundaries between memory, desire and imagination, sometimes feeling more real than reality itself. We search for meaning in their repetition, wondering whether our subconscious is trying to communicate something we are yet to understand. But what happens when a dream feels less fleeting and more like a glimpse into a life, a love, or a version of ourselves waiting to be discovered?
- Behind The Scenes by Emma Spiteri
For Apollo Blue, this question became the seed from which their poignant new song and accompanying music video, ‘Love Dream’, would blossom. Long before it was realised, the song existed as a recurring vision of an otherworldly yet lucid love affair, offering insight into a world where queer love could exist freely, in harmony and peace. At a time when public discourse surrounding marriage equality and queer identity was fraught with political tension and social uncertainty, the dream offered an alternative reality – one unburdened by judgement or limitation. What began as a deeply personal experience stayed with them for nine years, evolving alongside their own journey of self-discovery. Rather than fading into memory, it became an enduring creative vision, one that could only be fully realised with the perspective, experience and artistic freedom that only time could afford which Apollo spoke about with us:
“To me the video feels like the fullest expression of the idea. And that idea needed time, experience and resources to be realised. It feels like I’m embodying that version of myself as if it were real and happening now, rather than a fantasy or reflection. It’s not often you sit with a song for 9 years before recording and building a visual world, but it felt like a story that I still needed to tell and get out of my creative system. It’s been really beautiful to revisit my baby queer years actually. I think we can learn a lot from the tenacity and purity of our younger selves, there’s something unbridled and beautifully naive about creating when you aren’t aware of limitations. It’s given me a rich text to build upon now at 29 with the experience and perspective to bring it to life.”
- Behind The Scenes by Emma Spiteri
The emotional world of ‘Love Dream’ extends beyond its lyrics and production into a visual landscape of watery textures, soft-focus imagery and surrealist distortions. Written and directed by Apollo, who also stars, the music video revisits the original dream through the refreshed lens of their artistic growth, preserving the tenderness of the relationship while reimagining its imagery for the screen. Drifting between dreamlike sequences of lovers playing and doting on one another and intimate close-ups of Apollo, laying in bed, singing directly into the camera, pleading, “Gotta see your face! Gotta see your face! Gotta see your face again!”; the video transforms this repeated refrain into an expression of longing, blurring the boundaries between romantic fantasy and the ache of wanting their dream lover to appear before them once more. Lynchian elements introduce moments of disorientation, disrupting the otherwise intimate atmosphere. Beneath these distortions, however, lies a deep commitment to the connection that inspired the project, as Apollo explains:
“I wanted to preserve the purity of the relationship in the original dream. There was a warmth and depth that completely consumed me, it was so important to me to keep the truth of that relationship alive in the video. I want people to feel the purity of their connection, the natural beauty of queer love. The Lynchian inception moments were something we reinvented that weren’t part of the dreams. Visually I just thought it would be an effective way to show the dream world distorting, to see the dream lover flash in and out of frame through the reflection of the mirror. Similarly, in the final sequence where the dreamer watches their own ‘love dream’ play out on a projector while playing ‘Love Dream’ on piano.”
- Behind The Scenes by Emma Spiteri
Translating such an intimate vision into film required a shared creative sensibility. For Apollo, distilling the vastness of their emotions and imagination into a structured, practical shot list initially proved to be overwhelming, requiring them to find a way to translate the fluidity of dreams into a tangible cinematic vision. Working closely with cinematographer and co-director Charlie Stamatogiannis, Apollo was able to bring their vision to life, with Charlie’s collaborative approach helping shape the video’s visual identity. Together, they developed a striking contrast between natural landscapes and artificial environments, allowing the dreamer’s emotional experience to dictate the world around them. As Apollo elaborates:
“To depict this visually, I knew I needed two inverted settings; the dream realm in nature and the waking realm in an artificial studio space. In order to translate the depth of connection I experienced in the recurring dreams, the dream realm had to be the more ‘real’ and naturalistically lit, and the waking realm had to be the distortion, in artificial light, because that’s how it felt. This contrast of settings created a grounding of fantasy vs reality that we could play with using costuming, symbolism, makeup, camerawork and SFX to translate the dreams effectively […] Lens flares and iridescent fabrics were very early placements on my mood board. I’d already shot the single art for ‘Love Dream’ with the talented Bailey Baerwolf, and during our magical shoot we discovered by just playing with fabric, that covering the lens with iridescent pink fabric created ethereal pops of colour that brought the fantastical nature of ‘Love Dream’ to life. So when it came time to shoot the video I brought the exact fabric to set in order to marry the world of ‘Love Dream’ across visual mediums and create a similar effect!”
- Behind The Scenes by Emma Spiteri
The result is striking. Bathed in lilac purples, contrasting blues, soft pinks and natural bright greens, the video unfolds through a palette that feels in equal measure, nostalgic and otherworldly. Images layer over one another like delicate fabrics draped across a camera lens, while pearls shimmer and light glistens across the frame. There is a tender reminiscence to its beauty, as though the film is reaching towards a world that does not yet exist, but might someday be within reach. Drawing on surrealist cinema and the hazy romanticism of 2010s indie pop and queer media, the cinematography combines natural lens flares, reflective textures and soft focus to create an immersive visual experience. Through an exchange of references and a careful consideration of each frame, Apollo and Charlie sought to give form to a world that had previously existed only in Apollo’s imagination. Speaking further to this, Charlie detailed:
“I think a huge part of translating dreams to screen was constantly bringing each other different visual references and interrogating exactly what we did or didn’t resonate with them. I’m hoping that we’ve come away with something that mirrors what only Apollo could see in their head when they dream! […] We used a set of vintage Canon FDs and a Samyang 50mm prime that’s pretty fast. The look we were going for incorporated lots of natural flares and bokeh, soft texture and enough character that everything has a nostalgic, dream-like feel without being too distracting. 2010s indie pop music videos and queer media from that time were key references for me in building the look.”
- Behind The Scenes by Emma Spiteri
The video’s art direction, co-crafted by art department contributor Cait Nelson, draws on the symbolism of mythology and the natural world, with production design serving as a bridge between the song’s sonic textures and its dreamy landscape. Oceanic imagery, iridescent details and flowing fabrics evoke the unconscious as a place of mystery and creation, while pearls and shell-pink organza lend the video a distinctly mythological sensibility. Taking influence from the sensuality and mysticism of Greek goddesses, these elements transform the dreamscape into something almost sacred, where love becomes both a source of beauty and a creative force. From the shifting waters of Merri Creek to the delicate interplay of costume, makeup and symbolism, Cait’s contributions help shape a world suspended between the earthly and the divine, as they explain:
“Motifs that began in the production of ‘Love Dream’ sonically were carried over into production design for the video. I think immediately of the evocation of oceanic imagery as a symbol of the unconscious dreaming mind. There are costuming and prop elements, like the ready inclusion of pearls and the pleated shell-pink organza that conjure up the Birth of Venus for me; a very fitting nod to love as a creative force. Our first filming location, the gorgeous Merri Creek, was also a fantastic choice for the story we were telling; an idyllic but changeable water corridor and a potent source of everyday magic to the city dwellers nearby, providing an ethereal respite from reality you might otherwise only find in your dreams.”
- Behind The Scenes by Emma Spiteri
While the video’s mythological references draw on Apollo’s longstanding fascination with Greek mythology, these influences extend beyond its aesthetic, informing the intimate yet otherworldly atmosphere of ‘Love Dream’. As Apollo explains, this childhood fascination helped configure the video’s styling, makeup and production design, drawing on the sensuality and mysticism of mythological figures to create a world where love takes on an almost divine quality:
“Greek mythology was the birth of my stage name, Apollo Blue, named after Apollo; the God of music, poetry, light, healing and prophecy. The immersive stories of Greek Mythology were an early fascination of mine as a kid. The sirens and Goddesses of Greek mythology were often depicted with a sensual yet mystical power that I adored. This really inspired the styling, makeup and production design of the video. Sheer fabrics, glistening makeup, pearl details and symbolism through objects and colours were all used to portray the intimate yet otherworldly world that is ‘Love Dream’.”
- Behind The Scenes by Emma Spiteri
Within this dreamscape, however, the mythology gives way to something deeply human. The dream lover, whose face Apollo has been “dreamin’ of”, is portrayed with gentle magnetism by Kaio Pagani, embodying both the profound joy and inherent vulnerability of true intimacy. Their presence “fills the screen with warmth and radiance, while their absence casts a cold shadow,” revealing the emotional duality at the heart of Apollo’s vision. What began as a recurring dream that felt almost prophetic became an opportunity to explore not only the beauty of an imagined love, but also the grief and darkness that can accompany its loss:
“In the recurring dreams, it felt more like a prophetic glimpse into the future. Within the video I wanted to expand on this and contrast the joy with the grief and darkness that also comes with love […] I (also) wanted the video to tell the truth. And the truth is that queer love is an expansive, natural, limitless force. So it was less my idea and more just a reflection of reality.”
- Behind The Scenes by Emma Spiteri
For Apollo, revisiting this recurring dream has offered a way to reconnect to their younger self, processing and reflecting on their evolving understanding of identity, intimacy and queer love. What began as a deeply personal vision has since grown into an invitation for others to recognise the beauty and purity of their own experiences, unburdened by the expectations or limitations that have been imposed upon them. Through ‘Love Dream’, Apollo hopes to inspire other queer people to embrace love in all its tenderness and possibility, celebrating the freedom to love openly and unapologetically – an experience they describe as “so freeing”. In giving form to a world that once existed only in their dreams, Apollo has created space for others to imagine one where love, in all its expansiveness, needs neither justification nor permission:
“I hope people leave with reflections on their own love, loss and life. I hope it evokes an emotional truth, a resonance that stays with them. My hope for young queer viewers is that they know their love and identity is beautiful! I want them to feel pride and possibility in everything that makes them feel different or less than. Queer people have always existed and we always will.”
- Behind The Scenes by Emma Spiteri
The sonic and narrative world-building of ‘Love Dream’ has also allowed them to process what these recurring dreams once meant to them. Not only has their understanding of these dreams deepened, but the process has also offered an opportunity to reconnect with their younger self and reflect on the vulnerability of those formative years spent discovering and embracing their identity. In bringing this once-elusive vision into the physical world, they have since come to recognise the importance of honouring the parts of ourselves that may otherwise remain tucked away in the subconscious, finding freedom in the purity of loving without judgement or shame:
“It helped me understand what a delicate time it is when you first come out and open your heart to not just the world but yourself. The purity of loving without judgment or shame is so freeing. […] It deepened my relationship to the dreams. There were so many moments of creative joy and divine friendship while working on this music video with such a beautiful group of friends. It made me realise the power of honouring your dreams, literally and figuratively!”
- Behind The Scenes by Emma Spiteri
Beneath the mythology, magnetic iridescent textures and dreamlike imagery lies something far more intimate; an expansive understanding of love, and the freedom that comes with allowing it to exist without judgement or shame.